There was a time, when Sins would have given anything, including his decrepit looking, sentimental value possessing black shirts to anyone who so ever desired it, if only, if only he were given a sense of hope, a calm, rational, guiding voice, so to speak in his life. Maybe, it was already there, maybe it … Continue reading Wars, Flashing Teeth, Chaos and Solace
Category: Life
The Sign of the Light
Tables turn, bridges burn,you live and you learn! If there ever was a sign, this was it and Sins felt tugs, rips and pulls pulsating across his body as if he were gliding across an ocean of red, blue and green, in search of the elusive forbidden fruit. Voices, tunes and jingles were an understatement, … Continue reading The Sign of the Light
I Can’t Sleep! Too Many Voices Trying To Talk To Me
He felt himself whimper and shudder with pleasure as the warm mounds of solid chocolate turned into semi-liquid, near the base of his tongue, squishing around his mouth as if he sought an overdose; no doubt expressed by the sight of himself on his smartphone self, with froths of milk chocolate all over his mouth. … Continue reading I Can’t Sleep! Too Many Voices Trying To Talk To Me
The Fucking Pointlessness of it All
As far as he could say, there was no fucking point in doing anything at all. Hoping for self-righteous fucks to chide him with claims of the 'divinity', 'sacredness' and 'purity' of life, he thought his life so far had definitely been worth living for, seeing as he had been lucky in experiencing pleasure that … Continue reading The Fucking Pointlessness of it All
I’ll Love You Long After You’re Gone
Note: this post is not a sad love letter, although the title sounds like one. Its a lyrical line from Philips Philips' popular song, 'Gone Gone Gone'. Every single time I listen to it, it reminds me of Starr, whom I adore. Unfortunately, we cannot be together due to factors beyond our control. All I … Continue reading I’ll Love You Long After You’re Gone
Among All, Cannabis Stands Tall
The man closed his eyes, wishing never to open them again. He felt as if small knives, with their small pointy ends, were having a go at him, somewhere near his chest region. He refused to cry, and the tears obliged accordingly, retreating back inside as if chided for making an uncalled-for appearance. He was … Continue reading Among All, Cannabis Stands Tall
The Strings Of Shock
Hotel California's guitar solo made its presence felt in the room. He was lying down on the stone-cold floor, half-naked, trying to sway around in an action, in accordance with the two guitars. Failing horribly, he lifted himself up and plonked down on his sofa, like an exhausted coal miner after his first ever shift. … Continue reading The Strings Of Shock
Love and Markets
"For you, for you, I'm not moving on, I'll love you long after you're gone" He had loved. He still did. For all the time he had spent writing down his feelings, never had he imagined that it would come down to this, a mere existence racked up with guilty pleasures and productivity hacks. A … Continue reading Love and Markets
The Gory Life Of Mr. Sins – Part 1
An imminent lightning strike, the roar of thunder and plumes of cannabis smoke, amidst a power cut and candlelight, characterized and summed up Mr. Sins' day. A life of abject struggle awaited him, no doubt helped in part due to a series of bad decisions that had culminated in financial fraud, two lawsuits, a murder … Continue reading The Gory Life Of Mr. Sins – Part 1
The Tango of Thinking and Actually Doing Them
The substance was making him talkative. But he knew that not all talk was productive. In the sense, since speech was the output of a function of all the existing information and experience that the human mind had sought to understand or come into contact with, it is prudent to know that not all the … Continue reading The Tango of Thinking and Actually Doing Them
Complex Systems and Complex People
The sense of calm enveloped him like a crooning lover. It felt like..being balanced, homeostasis. He had finally reached equilibrium, the mode of being where focus, attention and being in a state of flow was all that mattered. Bedeviled by distractions on all sides, he felt as if his sense of attention had become blunt, … Continue reading Complex Systems and Complex People
The Heart is Racing, It Keeps on Repeating
Three hearty swigs of freshly brewed beer later, Mr. Well reckoned that another couple of hearty swigs of beer were in order. He didn't drink often, preferring to let his body recover for days and weeks at a time before the next swig of beers. Mr. Well liked mind-altering substances and his preferred choices were … Continue reading The Heart is Racing, It Keeps on Repeating
Baby, I’m Addicted, I’m Out of Control
He had finally lost control. The thoughts had refused to go away. It had begun a few minutes after he had woken up. His sleep was much better than last night. He had dreamt, finally. After a long, long time. Maybe a few months. He couldn't understand what the trigger had been. Or maybe there … Continue reading Baby, I’m Addicted, I’m Out of Control
The Death of Mr. Sins
For a long, long time, Mr. Sins stared, at nothing in particular. He had begun the year in spectacular fashion. For a full two months he had continued, day after day, visualizing the time when he would be frolicking along a quaint coastal bed, hand in hand with the partner of his dreams. Three days … Continue reading The Death of Mr. Sins
The Joys of Mind Control
He woke up with a start. He was much earlier than usual. He didn't know why. On a normal day he would wake up at eight or nine. It was five a.m today. He felt as if his internal system was trying to beckon him towards something, which he seemingly had to find out, as … Continue reading The Joys of Mind Control
It Is Time To Choose Your Vice Wisely
He felt extremely light-headed. Not because he had used a stimulant. Not because he had absorbed a new piece of information, so ubiquitous as they now were. Not even because he had nothing to do, since there was always something to do, it was the age of flowing after all; a constant flowing stream of … Continue reading It Is Time To Choose Your Vice Wisely
The Life Of Hearts
One cold, gloomy, overcast morning, over a cup of freshly brewed coffee, an Ethiopian blend which he had procured from an import house, Sins could suddenly, crystal clearly remember the entirety of the life he had led for the past four years. He could see every individual he had met and every circumstance from the … Continue reading The Life Of Hearts
All Aboard the Evolutionary Cannabinoid Lifestyle
The gist of the post is about one's lifestyle. Just like how nature evolved to produce cannabinoid compounds in both humans (the human endocannabinoid system) and the cannabis plant, is there a best way to live? Or rather, keeping in mind the unique genetic and personality traits honed from an individual's life so far, from … Continue reading All Aboard the Evolutionary Cannabinoid Lifestyle
When Life Throws A Special Person At You Unexpectedly
He closed his eyes and waited for Starr to arrive before it hit him: he had reached the place one day too early. Cursing his memory for once, he decided to stay and have his dinner, mentally making a note to drop her a message and remind her about tomorrow. It wasn't as if he … Continue reading When Life Throws A Special Person At You Unexpectedly
The Queen And The Terrace
She walked in, he froze up. Reflexively. It felt cute in a way that he couldn't speak. He left to have a cigarette till his knees got weak. Escape was just a nod and a casual wave, towards no one in particular, but an omnipresent being that seemed to corner him whenever she came around. … Continue reading The Queen And The Terrace
The New Indian Manifesto
Note: The aim of this post is as always, to educate and inform. This post is intended for everyone in the world, but primarily for the Indian youth population. Youth here, defined as men, women, boys and girls from the ages of 15 to 35. BOOM! As we draw down towards the beginning of the … Continue reading The New Indian Manifesto
Life Has Just Begun
He hadn’t dreamt in a while, not for the past couple of months. It was the best of times. Days would go by in a blur of content, commute, calls, coffee and cash. To and fro would he swing from destination to the next, as if he were the harbinger of joys, sorrows and everything … Continue reading Life Has Just Begun
How Everyone Changes And A Possible Solution For Criminals on the Death Row
There were many things that he adored. Adored with all his heart. Out of all the things, he adored her the most After all, the much-professed viewpoint that each and every human being had been born with a divinely ordained purpose was a viewpoint that strived its best to sit with him in times of … Continue reading How Everyone Changes And A Possible Solution For Criminals on the Death Row
She Stopped His World
When she appeared, his world stopped. Like a plume of radiance enveloping him from time to time, he imagined her face, in all her glory, as if the goddess had chosen him to reveal her human form to. He was fortunate. Of that he was sure. For how else, had he mustered up the courage … Continue reading She Stopped His World
The Quintessential Modern Life
"She's got a smile that it seems to me, reminds me of childhood memories, when everything was as great as the bright blue sky" "Really?" "Yes" "Awesome. So have you told her?" "That she's got a smile that reminds me of the bright blue sky? Not directly. I wrote a letter a few months back. … Continue reading The Quintessential Modern Life
How Can You Understand The World?
When Sins was five years old, he saw the mighty train engine. Mighty, as he called it, seemed like an understatement. As he slept that night, its sounds reverberated in his ears, causing him to wake up in the middle of the night, imagining that the earth had cracked into several pieces at once. The … Continue reading How Can You Understand The World?
Master Your Mind, Master Your Life
He had been waking up at 4 a.m for the past two weeks. Was it just possible? That he had finally turned it around? A lifestyle he had sought for years, yet with consistency and willpower having always eluded him, it finally looked as if he had turned his sleeping pattern around. His mind felt … Continue reading Master Your Mind, Master Your Life
Why You Should Give A Fair Trial To Vipassana Meditation
Sins was twenty-four years old and looked so. He had never heard about meditation one month before June, 2019. In the sense, he had been under the impression that rites, rituals, chanting, deities, human or imaginary, spiritual experiences and meditation were all tools, methods and techniques to calm the human mind through belief and sustained … Continue reading Why You Should Give A Fair Trial To Vipassana Meditation
Someone To Hear Your Prayers? Someone Who Cares? Its You.
"I hear her voice in the morning hour, she calls me. The dawn reminds me of her presence, a few miles away. Walking down the road, I get a feeling that I should have told her yesterday, that it's her energy that I feed off, in spirit, in conversation, in times of good and bad, … Continue reading Someone To Hear Your Prayers? Someone Who Cares? Its You.
The Impending Storm of November.
He had had a calamitous September. Not that it mattered. In fact, he welcomed the uncertainty and chaos that seemed intent to take him, wring him in an invisible, gigantic hand, and spew him back towards a world hell bent on making things as difficult as possible for him, simply because, they were difficult things … Continue reading The Impending Storm of November.
Marijuana Maharaj 